Just the night before, I told my husband of the recent lay offs at the job, and wished I was one so I could stay home with the kids and work on ministry. So in that moment I almost felt like saying "Oh shoot, the Lord answered my desire." But was I really ready. Did I really want to leave such prestige company, and position, to stay home with three toddlers. The answer was "Ofcourse!!!" It was tough leaving, but my time there was past due. The position I was in was not what I liked, and the work was overly exaggerated. So, ever since then I've been home with my kids, Joshua, Justin and Hannah.
Staying home was rewarding. Finally my kids, were enjoying their home. When I was working they spent so much time with grandma, that they prefered to be at her home than their own. It broke my heart when they cried for grandma, rather than me…their mom.
Today, they still love grandma, but they love the home we've built together. They ask grandma to come here, and spend time with them.
In the mist of all this 'raising of kids' I found myself wearing more jeans, and caring less of how I looked. I started to eat more, and gain some weight. I started to feel almost useless when it come to finances in the home. Which was new territory for me, I've always been the one to provide, to help out, and keep things running. I've been working since I was 14 years old.
So I found myself struggling. Struggling with my self, my wants, my needs, my kids needs, my husbands needs. I knew and felt that being home was the best thing to do, but I wanted to do something that I can generate income for my home. After much prayer, and listening of God's voice, He led me to Avon. A simple online a form and a quick phone call, and I was at the Avon office signing up to become a Rep. I still remember that day. I felt so empowered, and excited. I knew it was going to take work, but it was work that I can do from home. It wasn't til I started to work at it, that I realized how much I missed socializing with people. I missed seeing people, and having something other than time-outs and diapers rashes to talk about. Now, I was talking about rejuvenating skin, and awesome make-up that made me feel brand new again. I become motivated to lose weight, and it just brought my life back. I know have energy, and purpose and something to look forward to. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids. But I needed some brain stimulation. Some socialization. I needed my life back.
So hear I am, still working up my clientele and doing the best I can, to support my family while I nurture them as well. I feel great. I feel rescued.
